Let’s Start from the Beginning

As I start this new adventure of vocalizing my hopes and fears for Elena, I wonder where to begin.  I suppose the best place to begin is at the beginning.  I married my husband, Jason, in August of 2002.  Shortly thereafter we learned I was pregnant with our first child.  Caden Alexander came into this world in June 2003 and we couldn’t have been more excited.  He was a big brute of an infant and came into this world ready to take on anything.  As new parents, we were overwhelmed.  Everyone told us we would be sleep deprived, but until you experience it, you can’t possibly understand the magnitude of what that means.  Next came Ava Elizabeth.  She joined our family in March of 2005.  She was tiny in comparison to her brother and very observant of her world.  These two couldn’t have been more different of each other, and that’s what made our lives so entertaining.  In October of 2009, we learned that we would have a third child.  I was excited about our pregnancy, but also wondered what this third child would do to our family dynamic.  My husband and I could easily divide and conquer, and we were soon to be outnumbered.  As the weeks ticked by, it was soon time for our 20 week ultrasound.  We were all so excited; Caden hoping for a brother, Ava a sister.  We quickly found out we were going to have a bouncing, happy baby girl.  Ava was ecstatic, Caden not so sure.  Everything else came back normal, giving us no reason to feel we needed to do any genetic testing/screening.  We hadn’t done any extra testing with Caden or Ava, I was only 30, and we had no family history.  Why risk the pregnancy, it wouldn’t have changed the outcome anyway.  As I think back about that decision now, I wonder if maybe I would be functioning better now if we would have done the testing and found out.  If I would have had time to come to terms with her diagnosis before she was born, would I have been more prepared to handle it?

~ by triumphsforelena on November 9, 2010.

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